harapan aku sekarang ni...

erm...
wlaupn aq xdpt nk brsme ngan die...
aq ttap tbah jlnkn idup mcm biase....
cme ssah skit sbb smngt aq da pdar....
idup aq pn da jdi mcm dlu...
skit aq pn dtg blik...
jgn r smpai mlarat....
kang xpsal2 adik2 batch aq rsau...
sampai nk tau sngt aq skit ape....
aq bkn xnk gitau...
aq cme bgitau kt spe2 yg jdi girl aq yg btul2 syg kt aq...
tpi aq lnggarkn...
khas utk adik2 aq...
aq akn bgitau dieorg psal skit aq....
cme prlu...
unite....
unite smpai thap yg mmuaskn aq...
hurmm...
bile la dieorg unite.....
aq btul2 rse xaman bile tngok adik2 aq jdi mcm ni....
klu la dpt aq satukan adik2 aq ni....
bleh la aq pergi dngan aman tnpa mnta ape2 pon....
aq ade mmpi yang batch aq unite....
kwn2 sume brkrjasma....
saling phm stu sme len....
up-kan smgt klu ade adik2 len yg tngh down
smpai sorak aq dieorg wat ngan pnuh smngt
time 2...
bile bgn...
aq trsnyum...
snyum yg xdpt nk diungkaikn...
jdi....
hrap2 la adik2 aq dpt slesaikn msalah ni...
dieorg kne tau yang.....
perjuangan dieorg msih belum selesai.....

Untuk hari ni...

hurm...
ari aq rse mcm xde mood je...
ksnyian trasa...
ari ni aq ade lirik yg mngkin jdi msj kt ex aq...
lgu ni dri def gab c...
band agak lme r...
lgu die mcm ni...

redup matamu memandang wajahku...
jangan menangis...
memang benar dulu kunci hatiku ada padamu...

aku kembali dimatamu kini...
bukan kerana kamu...
bukan niatku melara hatimu...
usah khuatir..

jika hadirku melukai hati...
maaf ku pohon abadi...
kini dihatiku satu puteri yang pasti bukannya kamu...

ampunkan aku...
seandainya engkau menangis lagi..
ampunkan aku...
memang aku bukan lelaki dulu..
ampunkan aku....
seandainya engkau masih merindu...
ampunkan aku...
mendung ini pasti akan berlalu...

redup matamu memandang wajahku...
jangan menangis...
kita lewati saat kau dan aq....
leka menari....

ampunkan aku..
seandainya kau menangis lagi...
ampunkan aku...
memang aku bukan lelaki dulu...
ampunkan aku...
seandainya engkau masih merindu...
ampunkan aku...
mendung ini pasti akan berlalu...

kesunyian~~

hurm...
ade 1 ksah yg nk dcritekn...
mle2 sblum aq msuk UiTM ni...
aq ade knal ngan sorg ni...
die ni sme tnggi ngan aq....
cme mke die crah skit dri aq...
aq ingt gi...
time 2 die pkai bju wrna coklat n jeans..
owh...
ngan tdung ptih...
mle2 mcm sgan je nk tgur...
tpi tngok die snyum...
aq pn tgur la...
tnye die course ape..
die ckp die amik diim..
pas 2 kte org da jdi kwn...
pas 2 ade 1ari tu die mntk nmbor...
sbb mne la tau mngkin org leh tlong psal kmpter...
pas 2 org call la...
then sjak 2 jdi rpat gile....
lgi2 bile dpt tau yg die ni ksat kmpni BK..
.....
mse 1 ari 2...
ari yg aq dpt call yg ex aq mninggal...
aq frust gle2....
aq da tkad...
mlas ngan prmpn...
tpi bile trsrmpak ngan die...
aq da ade ske kt die...
tpi aq thankn prasaan aq...
ade la aq call2..
bbual lme2 ngan die...
aq time 2 ade niat nk couple ngan die...
aq da ready nk jdi couple yg sngt stia utk die.....
tpi aq ade trfkir....
ade ke prmpn yg perfect mcm die nk org yg lowlife mcm aq???
aq pn dgn braninye mntak...
tpi die kte die xnk...
aq pnye cbe bnyk2 kli....
tpi die try pusing topik len....
smpai r time final exam....
aq ade call die...
tpi die xangkt...
call bnyk kli pn sme...
pas 2 die msj ckp yg die da ade boy...
erm...
kcwa lgi htiku...
so aq kne la stop contact die....
sbb prinsip aq..
aq rse mcm mnggngu psang org klu msj prmpn yg ade boy....
so...
idup la aq dlm dnia khyal aq.....
idup dngn knangan brsme arwah...
tpi...
tbe2 die msj...
n ckp sbnrnye die single...
n ckp die msj ade boy sbb nk focus time final...
pas 2 aq pn start la msj2 die n call.....
time 2 jgak aq nk mntk...
tpi bnde sme gak die twist...
aq pn try...
try, try n try....
tpi die bgi jwpn len...
aq rse kcwa skit r...
tpi da x...
sbb die ade ksi bear kcik..
die bgi time modul...
best sngt2...
ade 1 ptg...
aq pgi Speaker Corner(SC)..
bincang psal DELTA..
aq ade nmpk tira...
aq ckp kt die yg aq rse mcm nk biarkn die...
Yela...
die pndai kot... 3 pointer...
mne la die nk ngan aq yg standard biase je...
pas 2 tbe2 tira ckp yg zie ni ade boy...
aq rse btul2 kcwa....
too sad to cry....
aq blik bilik smbil thankn prasaan sdih aq...
lpas da bring kt ktil aq pn msj die..
msj die tnye sbb pe tpu org yg die single...
tpi die ttap kte xbtul...
n ckp die single....
slang brape ari...
aq da tkad...
nk mntak couple kli trakhir....
pas 2 die xnk....
aq pn ckp la yg aq sdar yg aq ni dak srba kkurangan....
pas 2 tbe2 die kte die ade boy....
kcwanye aq time 2....
aq rse pilu sepilu2nya...
malu semalu2nya...
dn hmpa sehmpa2nya...
aq trus rse skit...
aq ne leh ade emosi negative...
lgi2 bile sdih...
aq ssah nk ngis....
bdan aq rse sakit sngt....
n xdpt tdo....
tpi...
tbe2 die mntk couple...
aq trpksa tlak wlau aq xrela...
sbb die laki len...
aq xske nk downkn org len....
biar la aq mcm ni...
wlaupn aq idup dlm kskitan...
skrng ni...
prasaan aq...
trlalu pdih...
smpai ape yg aq bleh wat hnya mmbisu....
knape dlm soal cinta asyik aq je yg rse skitnye???
aq da xsnggup lgi nk idup dlm dnia ni....

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hello korg....
oleh krana rmai prmntaan...
aq pon tngh mnulis kisah antara aq dan arwah ex aq....
fkir pnye fkir dpt la tjuknye....
tjuk yg brjdul...
"Cinta antara dua sekolah"
dlm crite ni...
aq ksahkn ttng khidupan aq ngan die...
ssah pyh dn bnyk dgaan kteorg...
akn di bukukan dlm cite ni...
hope bile korg da bce akn bri feedback for improvement k....
anyway...
bye....

Smlm.. kau prg tnggalkn aq tuk slamanya..

semalam...

aq ingt lgi kau ckp sblum kite ptus...

jge dri bek2....

jgn mdah rse down....

idup msti kuat luar dan dalam....

jge kshatn ngan jgn lpe mkn ubt on time...

kt skola tknik 2 jge dri bek2...

syah da pandai so blaja smpai msuk u...

org smpan g sweater syah yg bsar wat org lge time sjuk...

trime ksih sbb syg na slame ni...

hrap2 abg dpt lpekn syg ngan dpt cri pgnti na...

lpas 2 kau da prgi tnggalkn aq tnpa sbrang msj atau pngglan...

21/06/2007

skrng aq da bleh brdri tnpa kau...

aq da msuk u kt uitm...

tpi...

tbe2 ana kwn kau tlepon aq...

tnye khbr..

pas 2...

die tnye aku msih tringtkn arwah lagi dan mmjukku...

aq trsentak...

air mata aq mula mnglir...

kau meninggal ssb skit SLE kau...

aq lgi mrasa nak mraung skuat2nye...

apabila trikh kau prgi...

1 ari lpas kte brpisah...

22/06/2007...

I still remember our first kiss

I still remember that day…
It was raining…
At the little red hut between my and your school…
The very wet afternoon…
I just only you and me…
I ask you out after I’ve done my activities…
Never thought that would be raining…
But I see you only smile…
The smile that you always give me…
It makes me feel relaxed…
I don’t know what to say…
I always do that after saw…
How wonderful you are…
I ask her if I can sit next to her…
And she says it’s alright…
We talk a lot about each other…
Yeah…
Chewing gum and having some laugh…
Suddenly
I noticed that you feel cold…
I took of my sweater from my bag and put it on for you…
You know that I’m not trying to seduce you…
But you hold on my side and hug me…
I caress your head and whisper to you…
That I really want to stay like this forever…
Man…
Only god knows how I’m feeling…
A few minutes after that you fall asleep…
In the air breeze…
I was amazed…
How a low guy like me cans get a girl like you??
Seeing your face…
This the moment that I really can’t miss...
But I have to wake you up…
It already 5 in the afternoon…
So I woke you…
You awake and suddenly…
You kiss me…
You know that was not your way…
But somehow I let it awhile…
We kissed to long…
And then I feel tear drop from you eyes…
“Why??” I asked…
She said nothing and goes back to her school…
With tear shattered…
I called her and then she replied that just say she’s alright...
I told her to keep that sweater...
to mark that wonderful afternoon...
maybe it can be cure if you miss me..
but I wonder…
And wonder…
What just happen to her…?
Is it about the kiss??
-To be continued-

If you where here for me~~

I wonder that…
Would she come again?
Considering her death…
I also wonder…
Can someone will replace her…
Inside of my heart…
No!
Nobody will be just like her…
I still remember…
Our tragic moment…
The playground that we used to play...
You always pick the swing…
And play until the sun sets…
The smile…
That makes the sunset feel better…
Darn it!!!
Why you don’t just take me along?
I tried to kill myself…
But I don have the guts…
I always dreamt about years back then…
I can only feel you..
When I feel alone…
That’s why I prefer to be alone…
Just to feel essence of you by my side…
Like a painkiller for my sorrow…
That makes the pain go away…
And I like the sorrow rather than pain…
Better than…
I want you always by my side…
Eternally…